Love Consciousness

“They say love saves, but it is love that teaches man how deeply he can bleed without dying.” – Marcus Aurelius

What is Love? (Baby Don’t Hurt Me, No More)

Love is the energy that kept my heart beating when my blood stopped flowing. By all accounts, I was dead — at least spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. Sure, my body was still alive, but that was just a matter of time. The body can’t survive without the head. I had lost everything that had ever mattered to me, and I could not see a road back. I was alone and bleeding out from a broken heart.

And that is the moment it happened. When my veins were dry and my heart was broken into a million pieces, I lacked the energy to take another breath, let alone another step. I finally fully and completely surrendered; I could no longer go on by my own will. My self-will died that day. And it was LOVE that rushed into the void created by that surrender.

It was the love for my children, but a depth of love that I don’t think I had ever allowed myself to experience. I don’t think I had ever felt safe enough to feel love like that before. But I felt it in that moment, and in that moment, I was saved. In the depths of my greatest pain, I found love consciousness, and I saved myself.

“There is no coming to consciousness without pain.” – C.G. Jung

“I think your heart needs to be broken, and broken open, at least once to have a heart at all, or to have a heart for others.” – Richard Rohr

But that is not where this story ends; it is where this story begins. The story that has always mattered is the story about the Resurrection, not the Crucifixion. The Resurrection is the story about the power of love consciousness to heal not just ourselves, but the world.

What died that day was my ego, my self-centeredness, and my FEAR. I stopped being afraid that day, and every day since. This is the remarkable thing I learned about love: it is simply the absence of fear. Love is what I am, and love is what you are. Love is our true nature, and we have hidden it behind a thousand forms of fear.

The power of love is the most profound force and energy I have ever encountered in the Universe. It literally brought me back from the brink of annihilation and powered me up like a freight train of creation. After my allegorical three days in the cave, I emerged other-centred and driven by God’s will.

This love consciousness is not only a power source from within, but also a frequency and attractor pattern for all the abundance the Universe has to offer. When I am in love consciousness, my self-seeking slips away, and my energy and thoughts are focused on helping others. And when I am in service to others, it not only brings me profound happiness and peace, it brings more love into this world.

“May the light of a thousand suns shine through

Live the life of grace that you were meant to.

Carry the light of God’s love into this world

Be the open heart the Earth longs for.

Can you feel it?

In your heart, can you feel it?

Open your heart, can you feel it?

Ang Sang Waheguru”

– Guru Ganesha

My heart is open today, and an open heart is not pain-free. An open heart is a heart that holds both pain and love together as two sides of the same coin. I have so much gratitude for all of those who have walked this journey with me so far. But nothing compares to the love, gratitude, and admiration I have for my wife, Jacqueline, who holds the container that keeps my heart from closing.

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